Trin

Mon, 16 Oct 2000 19:02:40 GMT

Again, it has been a while since I've last written you a letter. I see the picture-thing is working. Haven't seen that guy for a while, so maybe he's leaving me alone. I doubt that....
The job I have involves a lot of contact with people. At first I was reluctant to do so, but it came to me that it would be a good idea to get to know many people, so I can't just disappear. I'm trying to hide, but also not to hide. It's contradicting. The people I hide for, always seem to find me. The people I want to find me, don't, or worse, can't....
I'm tired. I'm going to sleep now, I promise to write again soon.

Love,

Trin

Wed, 04 Oct 2000 15:54:35 GMT

Heard from T. she uploaded one of the pictures I send her. It's from one of those guys that has been following me. She has explained how I should put the picture here, so here's a try.

So this is one of them. He's been following me around for a while. Jeez... he was so close... I was practicing with my polaroidcamera when I saw him. I tried my very best not to show him that I knew what he was up to. I just started asking people if I could take their picture for a schoolproject. I think I pretty much surprised him by asking him to, but he did not run away. I think he knew that would be suspicious.... So I took his picture and ran off. He tried to follow me, but I shook him off.... It was so scary. It happened last week but I'm still shaking. I found this photoshop that scans your photographs and puts them on disk. I let them do that (actually they let you do it yourself) and I took the disk with me. Later that day I mailed them to T. and she would put them on her page. She told me that there was something with the photographs and she needed to convert them or something. But here it is. At least one photo. So look out for this guy and take care of yourselves.

love
Trin

Sat, 30 Sep 2000 23:29:49 GMT

I guess it works then. sorry for not writing for such a long time, I know you must have been very worried. It's so hard to let you guys know what's going on with me. Everytime I find something new, I wonder how long it will take before it's discovered....
But I like this. This will hopefully give me the oppurtunity to let you know more frequently what happens around here. It's so easy! I'm glad I still have that silly laptop (yes, I'm still dragging it around with me). I often thought of selling it, but it's the only thing I have left from home. I'm glad T was able to upgrade it a little so I can do some more on it than just use it as a typewriter. I'll be carefull with my online activity, but I think e-mails are a little harder to trace then snailmail. E-mail is quite anonymous.... (lucky me!)

Well, like I told you the last time, I have found a job, but it took me quite some work to get it. I found a passport (I wonder why people loose them, but hey, I lost mine too!) and worked on it all night, replacing the existing photo with mine. So now I'm East-European. My back still hurts...
Yeah, I know it's illegal, but what am I supposed to do? At least I did a good enough job to be hired and that's what counts right now... I really needed the money and I place to stay, and where do you get without a ID these days? Nowhere and I guess that's where I am at this moment. It's to cold to sleep outside, I needed a place to sleep. I'm staying in this very cheap hotel (again) so at least I have a somewhat warm bed. Maybe someday I'll see the humor of all this.
T. adviced me to try and make friends everywhere I go, but it's so hard to trust anyone! Maybe the people I trust will hand me right over to those guys. I mean, it happened before, remember? Just when you think you can trust someone (and you actually do!) they turn around and stab you in the back! OK, so this hasn't happened *every* time, but it has happened alot! You have to admit it's a bit odd. Either they're all really after me or I'm just plain paranoid. In that case, please lock me up!
But otherwise.... they are there and they are out to get me.
How long before they find me?
How's the cat doing? Mis her a little... I lost that picture I had of her when she was little, it was so cute...

love,

Trin

Sat, 30 Sep 2000 09:54:54 GMT

Is this working?
Hi Mom and Dad!

Thu, 28 Sep 2000 09:54:27 GMT

Found a job, hopefully keeping it a while. Also, I found something else that could be very useful: a polaroid camera!
This will allow me to make photos of them and not losing the photos.
I also saw what my friend has done with my journal, I like it. Perhaps she'll be able to put the photos here too, so you know what those guys look like.
Trin

Thu, 28 Sep 2000 09:53:37 GMT

Hiding again. Hope they don't find me here. Public library. Hard to trace. Need money...
Trin

Thu, 28 Sep 2000 09:52:57 GMT

Oh, god! They found me again! My photo's are missing. The lady at the photoshop doesn't know where they are...
Leaving here, talk to you soon!
Trin

Thu, 28 Sep 2000 09:52:33 GMT

Well, here I am. On my birthday, sitting on a bed in a dirty hotelroom celibrating my 21st birthday... This wasn't what I had in mind last year! I mean, I know I don't like my birthday, but sitting here I've come to realize that a rather have a lousy birthdayparty (sorry, mom, I know you tried!) than having no birthday at all. A few months ago I actually expected you would throw this huge party for me, mom, inviting all these people I don't like. And I would complain about it and you would say it's so much fun. And I would be cranky all day.
If only I could trade with that...

Furthermore, I've brought my camera to a photoshop. I really need the film that's in it. It will be the proof I need!
Send my love to Lucy and tell her I'm allright.
Love,

Trin

Thu, 28 Sep 2000 09:51:57 GMT

Dear Mom and Dad,

If you read this, it means you got my message. It appears they found my otherpage, and as expected it has been removed. I still wonder why they don't leave me alone! I'm so tired of being away from home...

Well, as you can see I found some new webspace to write my letters to you in, someone I met along the road is kind enough to put it here when I send my letters to her.

Not much has happened since the last time I spoke to you and I haven't seen them for a while. But they are still after me, else I would still have my other letters.
Right now I'm looking for a job, I'm almost broke. There's just this small problem: I lost my passport.... I don't know if I can find a job now, but I really need the money! Maybe I can find some work where I don't need an ID. For now, I'm staying with a friend, I can't tell you where, I don't want to risk discovery. I hope you two are doing OK.

Hang in there!

Love,
Trin